kvmb Chapter 314 Self-Reflection
Chapter 314 Self-Reflection
Under the guidance of a psychological counselor, Jiang Ciyou began a journey of in-depth self-reflection. She knew that this was a key step in untangling her inner struggle and making the right decision.
She first reviewed her own growing up experience. Jiang Ciyou was born in an ordinary but loving family.
Her parents are both hardworking and simple people. Although the family is not rich, her parents always try their best to give her warmth and care.
When she was a child, she watched her parents work day and night for the family, and the seed of working hard to give her family a good life was planted in her heart.
In school, she is an excellent student, and she has won the love of teachers and classmates with her own efforts. However, her growth process is not smooth.
The family's financial situation occasionally made her feel a little inferior in front of her classmates, which made her more eager to change the status quo through her own efforts and also gave her a strong pursuit of success and stability.
This upbringing also influenced her view of love.
She once believed that love was a force that could give her a sense of security and support her in pursuing her dreams.
When she met her husband, she was attracted by his confidence and talent.
He came from a relatively wealthy family, and the ease brought by that family background made Jiang Ci worry and yearn for it.
During the time they were together, her husband always gave her a lifestyle she had never experienced before, such as attending high-end social events and tasting expensive food.
These experiences, to a certain extent, satisfied her yearning for a better life and made her feel that she was one step closer to success.
Then, she thought about her own values. Jiang Ciyou has always upheld the values of honesty, kindness and hard work.
In her opinion, a person should get what he wants through his own efforts rather than relying on unfair means.
This is why her husband's betrayal was such a huge blow to her, because it went against her beliefs in loyalty and honesty.
When she was with Lu Jingchen, she felt his respect and support for her, which was in line with her values.
Lu Jingchen always encouraged her to pursue her career dreams instead of limiting her to family life as traditional ideas would have her do.
This respect allowed her to find her own value in this relationship.
She knew she wanted to be loved and respected, and she did feel loved at first in her relationship with her husband.
Her husband would take good care of her when she was sick and help her when she encountered difficulties. However, the betrayal on the wedding night made all this come to naught.
At that moment, she felt that her dignity was trampled on and her love was ruthlessly abandoned. The appearance of Lu Jingchen was like a ray of light shining into her dark world.
Lu Jingchen's love for her is passionate and direct. He always cares about her feelings, whether in the small details of life or when she faces a major decision. His love makes her feel cherished again.
However, she also understands that she cannot rely solely on others to meet her needs. After going through so much, she realizes that she needs to learn to love herself and be independent.
Looking back on her emotional entanglements with her husband and Lu Jingchen, she found that she was too dependent on the love and recognition given by each other in many cases.
In order to please her husband, she once gave up some of her hobbies and interests, and only wanted to become his ideal partner.
While getting along with Lu Jingchen, although he always supported her in pursuing her dreams, she sometimes still unconsciously pinned her happiness on him.
She began to think about how to truly love herself. Loving herself means respecting her own feelings and no longer compromising herself to please others.
She thought about how she once gave up a good job opportunity for her husband's preferences, simply because her husband felt that the job would make her too busy and neglect the family.
Thinking about it now, she should have stuck to her choice because it was her chance to realize her self-worth.
As for Lu Jingchen, she cannot lose her independence just because of his love.
She wants to continue pursuing her career, develop her interests and hobbies, and make herself a more complete and independent person.
Independence and self-reliance are not just a slogan for her, but also a life attitude. She needs to be financially independent and no longer rely on anyone's financial support.
She recalled that during the three years she had been with Lu Jingchen, although she had her own investments and accumulated wealth, Lu Jingchen's help was also indispensable.
She decided to study business knowledge more deeply and gain a foothold in the business field with her own abilities.
She wanted to be like those successful female entrepreneurs, have her own business empire, be able to make decisions independently, instead of relying on the support of men.
In terms of relationships, she also needs to learn to be independent. She can't make choices blindly because she is afraid of losing Lu Jingchen or her husband.
She has to believe that no matter who she chooses or whether she chooses to live alone, she has enough ability to make herself happy.
She wants to build her own social circle, enrich her life, and no longer let love be the only focus of her life.
She also thought about her life goals.
Her goal is not only to have a happy love, but also to succeed in her career and contribute to society.
She hopes that she can become an influential person and use her own experience to inspire women who have encountered setbacks in love and life.
She wants to set up a charitable fund to help women who are struggling like she once was to get back on their feet, giving them the opportunity to receive an education, get a job and realize their own value.
During this process of self-reflection, Jiang Ciyou also realized that he needed to overcome his inner fears.
She was afraid of being hurt again, which made her hesitant when it came to her husband's request to win him back and Lu Jingchen's feelings.
She knew that this fear stemmed from past trauma, but she couldn't let it hold her back.
She must face her own heart bravely and believe that she has enough ability to deal with any possible harm.
She also reflected on her role in relationships.
She found that she was sometimes too passive in her interactions with her husband and Lu Jingchen.
She is always waiting for the other party to take action instead of taking the initiative to communicate and solve problems.
In her future life, whether in relationships or at work, she must learn to actively express her thoughts and needs, and actively resolve conflicts instead of avoiding them.
In addition, she also examined her ability to manage her emotions.
When faced with her husband's betrayal and quarrels with Lu Jingchen, her emotions often get out of control. She will fall into sadness, anger or confusion, unable to think rationally.
She knows that such emotional reactions are not conducive to making good decisions and will also cause damage to her relationships with others.
She decided to learn some emotion management techniques, such as regulating her emotions through meditation, exercise, or journaling, so that she could stay calm and rational when facing stress and challenges.
Jiang Ciyou also thought deeply about his concept of balance between family and career.
In traditional concepts, women are often asked to choose between family and career, but she thinks this concept is outdated.
She wants to find a balance between being successful in her career and having a happy family.
She thought of her mother. Although her mother gave up her career for the family, she also made great contributions to the family in her own way.
She herself wants to find a balance between the two, so that she can realize her career dreams and take care of her family.
In the process of self-reflection, Jiang Ciyou also gained a deeper understanding of love.
Love is not just an emotional entanglement between two people, but also a relationship of mutual growth and mutual support.
She realized that her emotional experiences with both her husband and Lu Jingchen were part of her growth.
Her husband's betrayal taught her to be strong and independent. The appearance of Lu Jingchen made her believe in love again and understand the importance of being respected.
She also thought about what she had given and gained in love. In her relationship with her husband, she had given her sincerity and trust, but in the end she was betrayed.
And in her relationship with Lu Jingchen, she received a lot of love and support, but she also realized that her efforts might not be enough.
She wants to treat the input and output in her future love life more fairly, no longer giving blindly or just asking for things blindly.
Jiang Ciyou's self-reflection is an all-round process. She conducted an in-depth analysis of many aspects, including her growth experience, values, life goals, interpersonal relationships, emotional management, balance between family and career, and concepts of love.
She knew that only through such reflection could she truly understand her inner needs and make a decision that would be both worthy of herself and lead her to a happy future.
It was a long and painful process, but she knew it was a necessary step in her growth.
She believes that after this deep self-reflection, she has taken a solid step towards becoming a more independent, confident and wise woman.